I've finally compiled and decided to make a blog entry that is NOT a review. I've been missing for almost a year, for many reasons. Firstly, studies have been taking over my life, and during holidays, I traveled so I didn't have a lot of time to write and blog. I feel terrible, as I didn't do a good job as a blogger. I will try to pick it up little by little.
Also at one point in 2012, I was going through a fair bit of problems, which caused me to not show my face on the blog world for a while. It was not a pleasant thing, and I would not want to make any of my readers disgusted of me. I was scared you would run away from me... For those who have read my reviews and seen my pictures from 2012, you might have notice if you can see between a shopped photo or not. I have massive break outs on my face, and my whole face was covered with pimples... it was horrible because it just reminded me how much I was teased when I was younger. I went through so many products trying to find a solution. I break out when I'm stressed... but when faced with extreme stress... I break out so bad that it was noticeable. It got even worst when any family member I met, it was the topic they would talk to me about. I appreciated the advice, but what hurt the most was "why are you not taking care of your face?" or "what are you doing to your self?"... or just passing comments like "Did you see her face?"
My boyfriend knows how much I cried. I hated to see my face every morning when I woke up. I literally caked my face with acne concealers to even hide the slightest redness on my face. I'm not rich, so I couldn't go see a dermatologist. I tried so many products. I could have easily used that money I spent on products to see a dermatologist. I was just finding the cheapest option. I was scared to use the pill, because I had bad experience with it before with massive mood swings, weird cravings to food I was allergic to, and the worst... I gained 10 kg from the pill.
It was driving me crazy, which didn't help because I just broke up more pimples....
But, I never gave up. My boyfriend always supported me no matter what and told me he loved me no different.
I went back to a doctor to consult, and she was nice enough to tell me I had to change my life style as well as use a pill, but a different kind.
I listened to her and turn my life around. I stop drinking alcohol, I eat healthy, I work out much more often, I make my own vegetable/fruit juice every morning. It wasn't easy at first, but I was more eager to get rid of this horrible face of mine.
It was totally worth it. Today, I have a much clearer face like before, but still slight break outs when I'm stressed, but nothing serious.
I do have pictures of what my face used to look like, but I don't know if I ever will write the process I went through in detail. Its disgusting.
I want to apologies to everyone. Since my face incident, I lost almost all motivation to write a blog or to read others. Mainly because all of you are pretty, which made me hate my self even more. I know this is really wrong of me to think so! Cuz the inside is what counts... right? I was just too depressed to see that.
No matter what, I miss you all and I do hope I am able to come back to the blog world once again, and see all you happy faces and information that you have to share with the world.
If you read all this, thank you... I really really appreciate it and I love you all very much.
Lets move to something happier :)
I've compiled a year long of outfits that I wore that I really like or got new. I hope you enjoy this photo blog style.
|My much cleared up skin. Still marks and scares are left but nothing make-up can't hide it.|
|Last year May, finally got my over sized sweater from Japan. It actually comes with a faux fur shall to cover the neck.|
|One of my uni wear. Was an easy day at uni so decided to dress up a abit.|
|Weather is a bit cold still, so pulled out my stripped stockings. I love how they make my leg look slimmer.|
|In June 2012, there was a match here in Brisbane. Japan vs Australia! I was ofcause for Japan but my boyfie was for Australia... It was a tie so no one got to brag about the night|
|Also in 2012 June, over the holidays I went back to Malaysia to visit my family. Finally had someone who would take bathroom shots with me!|
|Finally had the chance to shop at F21! I don't know how many items I bought from there. It was my first time to buy colored pants. I love these blue pants to bits!|
|Back in Brisbane, weather is starting to get warmer. Decided to whip out some old jeans that I hardly wear.|
|This outfit is slightly too girly for me, but no doubt I love it. They are all online shops from Japan. Instantly fell in love with the style and cheapness of the clothes!|
|Going back to uni again. Since I fell in love with the blue pants, I bought a mint color from Dotti.|
|AAAAnd the color pants continues. From far it looks like a light pink pants, but its actually leopard printed! I love leopard print stuff, just lately I dont buy and wear as much as before...|
|August, for the first time I pulled out my skirt pants to wear. I never thought I would look nice but I got a few compliments that day. Really made my day :)|
|Another black day for me, but matched it with my pink ....eerrr... i forgot what they are called... anyone? help?|
|One day in september, BAM! It just got warm like that. So I pulled out my short without stockings and went out. This is the day I went to get my hair changed to ombre. Byebye blond bunny.|
|Spring is almost gone already but still pulled the spring look at the last min. This is one of my favorite ccasual dress. I even occasionally sleep in it cuz its so comfy... shhhhh!!|
|New shoes for the nice warmer wheather. Love my heel-less shoes <3 br="">3>|
|2013!! Boyfie surprised me with a mini vacation to Gold Coast! He even bought me this lovely top as well as the Keren Millen watch for Christmas! Love Love Love!!|
|Tired of all the casual look so I pulled out a more dark sexy look! Its one of my fav outfits now but trying so hard to not wear it too often!!|
|Do you guys know Threadless? I've fallen in love with their cute T-shirts! These are my new three! Total I have 5 now!|
|My family visited Tokyo and Fukuoka, and they were so sweet to buy me a jacket from MURUA! But of cause picked by my dearest fashionista sister.|
|And this is just few days ago, using the top again! but this time with a black bottom. Since my face cleared, I've regain my confidence and back to unshopped photos.|
|Lately I've been in love with orange and red lips AGAIN.|
Hope you all are doing well and I'll start reading a bit more often now. Get back my daily doze of YOU!
Love you all very much.
Take care and stay awesome.